My wife approached.
My beautiful, innocent wife.
Every time I looked at her, I wanted to drop to my knees. I wanted to worship every inch of her body with my hands and my mouth. I wanted to hold her against me and give her anything and everything she could possibly desire. I wanted to run my hands through her think, lustrous hair and taste the skin of her neck. She had exceeded every expectation I may have had for a wife and brought along with her traits I had not even considered long enough to desire. I had already come to want her at my side at all times, and not just in my bed at night. I wanted to be near her – to hear her laugh and speak my name – nearly every waking moment of the day.
But not now.
I could only barely focus enough to understand where I was and who was approaching me. Had it been anyone else – anyone – and I may not have even bothered to give warning before an attack.
“Get away from me!” I screamed at her…my Isabella…my beautiful wife...and it pained my heart to speak to her in such a way. But if she did not get away from me and quickly, I did not know what I might do. The thought was enough to bring me just a little further away from the dark, enclosed space in my head.
Chapter end lines - usually I have these figured out about half way through a chapter. It's basically what the character has experienced during that chapter - what they've learned, what significant event took place, or how big of an idiot they are. Once the character gets to that point, I know the chapter is done. :)
The miniteasers are, honestly, an afterthought. I just go pick a short line that sums up a pretty major part of the chapter or one that I think will make the reader go "holy crow" and not be able to stop reading until they at least get to that line.
So there it is in a nutshell - the reason why I have all that crap in my stories. I hope to get your attention, keep your attention, and have you coming back for more.
Is it working?
If anyone has any similar kinds of questions, feel free to ask! I'd be happy to answer any of them that don't give away plot for a current story. :)
A couple new CBWR? chapters have posted today. There might be one more...it depends on how much help I get with laundry. :) The tone is going to change a bit, and the reason it's romance/angst will come forth. It's not really too close to done just yet - there's still a l lot to do. Stop by the Twilighted Thread and let me know what you think!
1. Unexpected Circumstances, Chapter 20. It's maybe half way done. It's also very long, so hopefully it will be worth it when it comes out. I'm currently targeting this Friday, assuming I can post again by then. I'm not going to create a blog for it, or post any of it here. UC in general is going to have to move to every-other-week until I can everything back in order. Please be patient! :)
2. CBWR? - I'm going to try to add a chapter a day, when I can. I won't promise to do so every day, though. Thanks to Vicki who had the chapter end notes for the rest of the chapters posted!
3. Blog updates - I know the email subscription thing isn't working on the Could Be Worse, Right? blog. I'll try to fix it, but I have no idea what I'm doing. LOL Let me know if you see any other problems.
Sorry I really haven't made any progress on...well...anything. I'm going to try and respond to those who have sent me messages on FFN and at least point them to the new home of Could Be Worse, Right? Hopefully I will have some time tomorrow to get the remaining chapters posted. I'll get a few up tonight, but not all. HUGE HUGE HUGE thank you to Ashley, who had all the way up to chapter 42 including the author's notes, which I didn't have, and missing chapter 8. THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!!! :) I know some writers don't care to have their work downloaded, but it never bothered me and I'm very grateful someone had this for me.
I have sent an appeal to FFN, but don't expect to hear back from them very quickly. I'll give them a week before I start asking again. Many have asked if they can help, and if you would like to send a polite message to firstname.lastname@example.org asking them to reevaluate the decision to pull the story, that might help.
As soon as I get the CBWR blog all updated with the current chapters, I will start posting more. Still hoping to get UC chapter out as well as soon as I am able to upload to FFN again.
Thanks again for everyone's kind words and support!
In the meantime, don't panic. I have no intentions of abandoning the story, and will find it a new home as quickly as possible. I'm not sure exactly where yet, but as soon as I know I will get the word out.
I have probably gotten about 500 messages today, and there is no way I'm going to get to them all. Please feel free to pass the word along in any forum threads and such - this story isn't dead, I didn't take it down, and it will be resurrected somewhere. As soon as it is, I'll post links here, on twitter, on my FFN profile, the twilighted forum, etc.
Unexpected Circumstances - I planned on finishing the chapter today, but with the FFN/CBWR fiasco along with my car being filled up with kerosene instead of gasoline (yeah - really), my day was pretty much shot. I have no idea when or where I will post anything at this point, so please be patient. I will do what I can when I can do it - promise! :)
Thanks for all the messages, supportive tweets and such. You don't know how much it helps when your day has gone to shit to hear people are thinking about you. :) THANK YOU ALL!!
I did make some decent progress on UC yesterday, despite various things working against me. Today is birthday celebrations. Why is it so nerve wracking to have your whole family over at your house? I better go do the dishes and pick up the dog toys from around the living room...
Froze my ass off in the cold rain at the Columbus Crew game last night, but SOOO worth it to watch KC go down in a 1-0 game. I loves my Crew!! I think my thighs are still frozen, though.
I'm Hoping to get at least one CBWR? chapter out today, but can't promise anything. I have to haul my son up to his soccer game (2 hours away), then come back for family time with the birthday boys. I may have time to write some between games, but posting may have to wait until late tonight.
Hope everyone has a beautiful Palm Sunday!
1. Wrap up Dad's birthday present (Got my Dad a bottle of Makers 46 - Doofusward would be proud!)
2. Get going on UC EPOV for Fandom Fights Tsunami (I have started this...I'm gonna have to come up with a decent title)
3. Finish UC Chapter 20 (Still got a ways to go...but should have a couple of hours to devote while in the car this afternoon) - I hope to finish it this weekend and maybe post Monday or Tuesday.
What are my chances? I guess I could go wrap up that bottle now...
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
Working hard on Unexpected Circumstances chapter 20. It may be a long one! Lots of stuff to happen in there, and of course I can't forget the smut. ;) It's not going to be ready tomorrow, but hopefully it will post Sunday or Monday.
And in case you missed it, I will be doing an Unexpected Circumstances Outtake from EPOV for Fandoms Fight Tsunami. Follow the link to the website and donate $10 today to get your copy, as well as stories for a TON of amazing writers!
Work is still extremely busy, but better than it has been the last few weeks. Thanks to those who have inquired about my health. :) But really, I do those kinds of hours pretty frequently - I don't think my body even notices anymore. HA!
In the meantime, here's a nice smutty teaser for ya...enjoy!
I had never felt so wanton as my hand brushed over the light hair on his stomach, trailing my fingers lower until they reached the top of his sleeping trousers. I knew something was a little different, for usually when I reached for him, I could feel the end of his flesh at the top of his trousers, yet it was not there. I glanced towards his face, but he remained still in sleep, so I slipped my fingers underneath the cloth and reached farther down.
When my hand discovered his male flesh, I was surprised at how soft and pliable it was, and how easily my fingers could reach around it. When he still did not stir, I ran my fingers from the tip down to the base, back again, and then wrapped them all the way around.
Though the rest of my husband’s body did not awaken, this part of him did. I could feel it twitch and grow in my palm as I stroked him as he had showed me how in the meadow. Soon I could no longer reach all the way around with my fingers as his flesh grew and pulsed in my hand.
With a low moan, Edward’s hips bucked up against me, and his arm grasped at my shoulders.
“Isabella!” his sleepy voice exclaimed. “Wha…what are you…oh…God…”
Sir Eddie has created a monster. :)
I'll have a chapter or two of CBWR? ready when it comes back up. Chapter 37 is ready, and chapter 38 is close. UC Chapter 20 is also coming along nicely, and I should have a good, juicy teaser ready to post tomorrow.
I'm not going to post any more chapters on the blog, sorry. I know people would like it, but I only have a very limited amount of space on here, so it is what it is. I posted up the one chapter because I felt bad about everyone getting an email notification from FFN but no one could read it. Hopefully, FFN will get its issues worked out today.
Work has calmed down slightly, at least. That's about all I can say.
Hope everyone has a great week!
Give me a while, because I'm going to create it on it's own page, but it should be up at some point this morning.
Thanks a lot for being patient and hanging in there!
Update - read chapter 34 here.
So...today's goals. Totally different goals from yesterday's goals.
1. Finish taxes (I'm SOOOO close!)
2. Pick up the dry cleaning
3. Post a chapter of CBWR?
And I am NOT at work! Woo hoo!! Yeah, after working 16-18 hour days all week, the boss threw me out of the building about midnight last night and told me not to come back today. So I have the day (relatively) to myself. It's raining, so any yard work I might have done is out of the question. The kids are on spring break - no school this week - but I have a huge list of chores for them, so they should be avoiding me like the plague. LOL
What does this mean to you? Well, here's my goal list for the day (in no particular order):
1. Finish taxes (I'm SOOOO close!)
2. Pick up the dry cleaning
3. Post at least 3 chapters of CBWR?
So, there ya go. Watch your tweets and emails and whatever. I should have the first one out before noon EDT.
Happy (almost) weekend!!!
It's just a little one, but I thought it was sweet. :)
His eyes met mine, and all the complex emotions displayed in them before – anger, frustration, worry – were gone. There only appeared to be content left in his dark green irises. Edward reached up and took my face between his hands, angling my head towards his.
“You are precious to me,” he whispered. His eyes were dark again – intense, but not with anger or need. I wondered what it meant when he eyes turned that shade of green.
UC chapter is nearing completion, so I hope to get it off to beta tonight. We'll see. But first, game night with the kiddies!
Time and effort into a chapter:
UC - average, 15-20 hours to write. This is for 5000-8000 words. Once done, I re-read and edit three times (add 2-4 hours). Then it goes through beta (may be 2-3 days before I get it back, sometimes quicker, sometimes longer). Then I edit it again. Then I read it all again, sometimes twice. Add another 1-2 hours. Total time, not including beta - 18- 26 hours.
CBWR? - average, 30-45 minutes to write. Sometimes less. 500-1200 words. One read-through when it's done. No beta. Total time - 1 hour. Maybe.
So, if you wonder how I can get 5-6 chapters of CBWR? posted and none of UC, that's the crux of the answer. As I may have mentioned, I've been at work pretty much constantly this week. 60-70 hours, I haven't really counted since I don't get overtime. I normally work 50-60.
So - see where my writing time went this week? Straight to work. :)
I have been writing CBWR in between conference calls and system validation because it is just an exercise for me, the plot is straight forward, the characters are only mildly developed, and I don't have to concentrate like I do for UC. It shows, too. As a couple people have pointed out, CBWR is no where near my best work. Compared to SB or UC? CBWR sucks, big time. LOL
UC has an insanely complicated plot, with all kinds of intricacies that I have to concentrate on when I'm writing so I don't screw it up and have to re-write a bunch of stuff ten chapters later. The characters are far more developed with a lot more involvement with each other. Remember how someone ended up creating a family tree page just to keep everyone straight? And those were only the people who are related to each other! The more UC I write, the more I think it's going to end up being 50 chapters or more as well. I also write UC WAY in advance. Yesterday, aside from doing 4-5 hours on chapter 19, I also wrote a good chunk of what will probably be in chapter 23 or 24.
So again - don't panic about UC. I am working on it FAR MORE than I am working on CBWR, you just don't see it right away. I've missed one or two weeks of updates out of the last 16, including holidays and when I've been on vacation. It is by no means an after thought.
Thanks for supporting all of my endeavors. I'm really glad to know people are so into UC that they are worried about it - that makes it worth all the hours I put into it. Now relax, enjoy the rest of your weekend, and hang in there. Hopefully work calms down this week. :)
“Now you understand the difference?” Edward raised his hand up in the air as if to make his point to the skies, or at least the roof of the barn. “Had she been his paid servant, I would have no issue taking him to the stocks. But she is a slave, and she is his property. He is free to use her as he sees fit.”
“I know, Isabella,” he said, his voice softening. He took a deep breath as he reached out and took me in his arms. “Do you not believe I would act on this if I could? But she is only a slave, and he is of royal blood from the kingdom next door to Forks. Even if she was a hired servant, I could not have punished him harshly. But she is his slave, and he has done nothing wrong.”
“Nothing wrong,” I echoed.
“Please what?” I asked quietly.
“You must understand she has no more rights than if he had brought a lamb with him to slaughter for the feast. Do you think I could tell him not to slaughter his own lamb? Do you think I could punish him for eating it?”
My eyes dropped to the ground, and I felt a single tear as it escaped from my eyes and fell across my cheek. I heard rapid footsteps, and Alice was suddenly with us.
“Edward, do not be angry with Isabella,” Alice said as she came up. “It was entirely my fault. I did not know Lady Whitlock would want to chat, and I can hardly walk away from my future mother-in-law. Isabella was only alone for the shortest of times, but still it was my fault, not hers.”
Edward froze for a moment, his eyes going wide as he looked first to his sister and then to me. I watched the realization come over him, and his confusion turned into the tyrant’s black rage.
“You…you were here…with them? ALONE?” As Edward roared out the last word both Alice and I took an involuntary step backwards. “While they were…were…”
Yeah...that ain't gonna be pretty...
This was simply fantastic. So glad to see something out of the ordinary in the FF world. It was gritty, raw, well written and not overly concerned with a lot of pointless description. It’s a big a slap in the face, which people need a lot of the time. Honestly, if I was going to offer a suggestion, I think you could have been more graphic, though it is fine how it is. The ending was absolutely perfect – everything from her thoughts to his reaction. Of course he assumed she would shoot him – it’s all about him, isn’t it?
I don't know what inspired this. I avoid drama like the plague. I’m too old for that shit. Some people said this was in response to something I’m writing – no idea if that is true or not. Doesn’t matter. If it is, I’m glad started that fic, because if someone’s misapprehensions (had to get one of SMs big words in there – ha) regarding what my story is about, ended up encouraging you to write and post this, I’ve done far more than I ever expected to do with my fic - through you.
Thanks for writing this. Thanks for painting something so beautifully ugly. I’ll be pimping the hell out of it.