Lots of Changes Coming

This is long and drawn out, so apologies up front.  You don't have to read it, but you might want to.

I get extremely nervous when I'm about to do something I have never done before.  The first time I posted a chapter up to Twilighted (and then later FFN) I was a nervous wreck - couldn't hardly push the button.  I don't care for change much, and certain things are more difficult to alter than others.  Of course, now posting to either place is second nature.  Otherwise Alone was basically ready for six months before I actually put it up on Amazon, but I think the next one will be a lot easier.

Obviously changing jobs, deciding to have a child, getting married, getting divorced - all of those are huge life change things, and we expect to be nervous about them - with good reason.  I don't mean that kind of stuff, but I don't mean changing the sheets, either.

So, I'm about to do something I haven't done before.  I'm going to pull two stories from FFN to publish them.  I know some people are not going to like this - they have their reasons and they're entitled to their opinions.  Ultimately, I have to do what feels right for me.  Is it right?  Is it a mistake?  I don't know.  I won't know until I do it.

I guess that's what makes me nervous.

One story is probably obvious - Surviving Bella has always been my personal favorite.  I've already rewritten it, and Surviving Raine is in the editing phases now, working on the cover art and all that.  It will be the next thing out.  So many people have asked about the sequel...well, like Otherwise Alone, it's going to depend on how it is received.  I have always planned on doing on, and would definitely like to do it, and I think I've had enough distance from those characters that I'm about ready to start writing them again.  Otherwise Alone was well received, and a sequel is coming, so I have hopes for Surviving Raine as well.

The other is maybe not so obvious - Transcendence.  Part of the reason is because the damn thing is so full of typos it drives me nuts.  I also think if I rewrote it there is a lot of potential, but it's going to take some work.  Yeah - like I need another project.  Ehd was also a lot of fun to play with, I must admit.  It will be much more of a rewrite, though Surviving Raine does have a few marked differences from Surviving Bella.

I don't plan on removing any others right now, so don't panic or anything.   Hell, it took me two years to decide to remove SB.  I still plan on finishing Caged, Not What She Seems, and I have another quick fic in mind for when those are done.  I want to keep writing fanfic - I love doing it.  I love playing in SM's world.  Heck, maybe I'll write some more Star Wars stuff while I'm at it!

I hope no one is too upset with this decision.  I wanted to tell everyone first because I consider those who read my blog (via the blog itself, Facebook or Twitter) to be the most supportive of what I do, and I appreciate that.  For the most part, I'm just going to quietly remove them without any fanfare on March 1st.  I did shut off FFN PMs for a variety of reasons (mostly I just can't keep up), but I'll have a new avenue to contact me on a new website soon anyway.  I know I'll get a lot of inquiries and opinions when they're removed, and I'll take those as they come.

I've got a lot of change coming in the form of Otherwise Alone sequels, other new characters and stories, a new website, etc.  This is just a part of it.  It all makes me nervous, but I also know it's time to take a step into the deep end.

Hope you'll be there with me - I might need a life preserver!

Fingers crossed, feet together...jump!